I’m starting to notice more predators in area. I wonder if it’s breading season for them or if they have returned from migrating? All I know is that they appear to be hunting double time. I was in the kitchen preparing for Happy Hour when I spotted a Kestrel fly into my yard so I quickly ran outside, right as she landed on the top of my patio umbrella. To see a Kestrel so close, I realized she was a tiny little thing but oh so calculated.
She did a quick scan of the area and luckily my feeders are hidden that there were no birds she could grab, dash and dine on, or so I thought. In a flash, she turned around and flew to the top of a tall palm tree 2 homes down. Then she swooped back down towards me but outside my fence and grabbed on of my little white crowned sparrows and headed back to the top of the palm tree.
I felt sick to my stomach, saddened and helpless. If I could climb to the top of that tree and rescue my little bird, I would have. I’m sure the Kestrel sensed my stress and sadness as I was screaming quietly that it at least had the decency to go to the backside of the palm tree out of my view to feast on my little bird. Feathers began to rain down and I was in tears..
I understand that this is nature and how the circle of life operates but it doesn’t make it easy to accept.
I asked God, does this ever make you sad or did you ever wonder if it was a mistake to make these and all predators so vicious? I waited and listened…. and I heard
“No, it wasn’t a mistake.”
God (perhaps lol)
Of course I kind of laughed about it and then said that at least I hoped that he would welcome all the innocent deceased little birds into the new kingdom making them whole and new again.
Wondering if my little bird was scared, if he died before he was torn to shreds or if he felt pain and again how scared he must have been. The rest of my evening was spent sporadically in tears as I pondered this. I do have to say that the only comfort I found, was in believing that my special little character was now with God and living a beautiful peaceful life.